From His Sleeping Kingdom in The Dirt.

From His Sleeping
Kingdom in The Dirt.
_______________

He misses her
from the gloom...

the cat-like curve
of her
mouth..

the Oceans of
Empathy in Her
Eyes..

That  Laughter
which could fill
A Hearts
Empty Room!

+++

Of This
he is Certain,..

Love can be
Hell.

But..
Loneliness
is Worse!..

Full of
Evil
Secrets
The Dead
would never
Tell!

(From Their
Sleeping
Kingdom In
The Dirt.)

+++

Perhaps it's
only Him..

but The
Stars
seem much
Dimmer...

(since he
Lost His
Only Friend.)

as he stands
below them
Screaming.

(till his
Voice becomes
a whimper.)

"oh,
Bring My
Lovely Back
Again!"

(If Only
while I'm
Dreaming.)

+++

but
The Moon
Laughs Madness
at His Despair..

torturing his
Mind with
Images of Her..

until He
see's Her
Sweet Face
Everywhere!!

(From His
Sleeping
Kingdom in
The Dirt....)

j.stephen.h.
__

note:

this is from
the perspective of
the romantic dead..
(who dream still.)
and attempts
(in vain) to capture
the essence of
That Ever-Loving
Will.

(which fades not.)

j.

an abyss where darkness laughs.

An Abyss Where Darkness Laughs.
_____________________________

Her Eyes Wink
Erotic Gestures in
My Grim Stares
Path.

So..This is what
Angels Are?
(I Ask.)

(how they cure
The Soul of
Wrath.)

++

A Penny For
My Thoughts
would leave
Her Broken,

and Lying on
The Floor,
(distraught)
Mumbling
Hateful
Words
unspoken...!

while flooding
(with tears)
an Ocean!

(full; of
Loneliness
and Rot.)

++

But you left
me here to Rot
"Compassionately"
Right?,...

even thought
I would be
"Better!!"

as if I do not
DIE each Night!,

(Reading Your
Romantic Letters.)

Feeling like
a Parasite..
who Drained
A Pretty
Mind!

(and left Your
Angel Soul
Untethered.)

++

My Eyes cast
an Empty Glare
into The SunLight
of Her Perfect
Stare..

so..This is
Who The
Devil is?

(she asks.)

A Beautiful
Phantom of
Modern Times
who shall lead
Me Nowhere!!

(but an Abyss
Where Darkness
Laughs.)

j.stephen.h

Death Came With A Smile.

Death Came With
A Smile.
_____________

(At Times
Like This)

I Don't
Know
Where
to Turn..

(Headed
Nowhere
Quick.)

and yet
She Wonders..
(as I burn)

Why it Hurts
to Reminisce!

(about
Love's
Lessons
Learned.)

+++

I Told The
Sky  a Secret,
(about My
Tortured Youth.)

and it
Promised
Thus To
Keep it!

(yet Never
Tells the
Truth.)

+++

And so..
The Love
of My
Life has
Murdered
Me,..

(but Still
I'm in
Denial.)

though
She Laughed
and said
"We Are
Destiny!!"

(So Death Came
With A Smile.)

j.stephen.h.

SoMeTiMeS/aLwaYs.

Sometimes/Always.
+++++++++++++++
          +++

(Sometimes) I'm told
My style Confuses,..
(sometimes) I do it
Unaware..
(Sometimes) while
Burning The Midnight
Muses!

(I drown in the Scent
Of Angel Hair.)

+++

(Always) though there
is this Tension..
(always) weighing down
My Heart,..while
(Always) trying Not To
Mention.

(Why My Life is
Dark.)

+++

(Sometimes) Shadows
Dance The Hall,..but
(Sometimes) I act like
they Aren't There,..then
(Sometimes) I write
Bloody Letters on The
Wall!!

(To Illustrate My Souls'
Despair.)

+++

(Always) Dead I Am
Inside..
(Always) Looking for
True Meaning.
(Always) Trying hard
to Hide!!

(from The Child In Me
Lost and Screaming.)

+++

(Sometimes) I say:
"I Do Not Love Her."
and (sometimes) I'm
Almost Self- Convinced.

(Sometimes) She is My
Universe!!

But (Always)
A Sin.

(From Which I Can't
Repent.)

j.stephen.h.

the darkness is all i have

tHe DaRkNeSs Is
aLL i HaVe.
____________

The
Darkness?

perhaps it's
all I have..

(indeed.)

and..
Perhaps
it's All I
Need?
_

Perhaps
Angels flap
their Wings
in Envy?

Seeking to
be Freed.

From the
Mirror.

(Their Own
Worst Enemy.)

j.s.h

ThE cHaOtIc sEa oF mE.

ThE cHaOtiC sEa oF mE.
++++++++++++++++++++
           __________

The Sky seems Barren Today..
(with that Bright Sun Smiling
Deceptively.)

Similar to A Sad Little Angel
Who Lost Her Way.

(and came Crashing Down
into The Tragic Sea of Me.)

oh..The Tragic Sea of Me!
What Fishy Thought Do Swim
in Here!...

with Sharks, and Bottom
Feeders running amok.

(Everytime I Drown Myself
in Beer.)

+++

The Darkness Today has a
"Taste."

Stale Cigarettes,..Olde Tears,..
and Whore's Perfume..

Another Financial Venture
Gone To Waste!

(Another way to Celebrate
My Doom.)

+++

Are you...weak in
The Wings
yet My Angel?

Still Beating your
 head against
The Wall..

(imitating Sad Love
Songs.)

wishing I would
STRANGLE..!?

(on these
"Perspectives"
that were For
You All Along..)

+++

Mmm...Tonight
will be a Better
One I Think..

(but they're always
better when I
Drink.)

A Victory Over
The Faceless Man..

who Challenges
Me NOT to
Think..

about the Red
Tears..dripping
in The Sink!

(everytime I
Imagine Her
or Blink.)

+++

Epilogue:

The Sky seems Cold
This Morning...(with
that Cold Moon still
Hanging Limply In the
Sky.)

Like A Fallen Angel
who did not Heed My
Warning!

(When I Told Her
Thus My Heart Was
Soon to Die.)

j.stephen.h.
(13.)

his 13th cigarette

his 13th cigarette.
_______________

He paints A Monster-Face
Atop The Happy Mask..

and lights His 13th Cigarette.

(the breaks the mirror and
laughs.)

+++

Irony seems to be a Fashion
Statement These Days..that
any fool could imitate.

A Trend for The Sheepish
Mass!!

(which even Apes
Perpetuate.)

+++

He saw Beauty through
blood-stained glasses..

(yet loved it still.)

but as with Anything
such Granduer passes!

( being a Manifestation
of The Will.)

+++

He Writes his Heart
out In His Empty Room..

without a light, nor
warmth..nor View!

Strangely attracted to
The Gloom.

(which paints a Monster
Mask Atop fond Images
Of YOU.)

13

LetTeRs To HeAvEn AnD HeLL

Letters to Heaven and Hell.
___________________

I wrote a Letter
to Heaven Today,
(wondering if I
still Believe.)
and set My Heartfelt
Note Aflame.
(For those Angels
of The Air to Read.)
+++

But The Sky
remained A
Bruised, Gray
Theatre,

as did My
Heart.

(which Wept
in Vain.)

and so it seems
I'll Never Get
Over Her!!!!

(Love's
Phantom
creeping
in My
Brain.)
+++

Each Night
I Scream up
at The Stars,
(through Tears
of Rage)
Dark Hateful
Curses,..

Lamenting She
Who Kissed My
Scars.

(and brought
True Beauty To
My Verses.)
+++

I'm Sorry Love
I could not Be
A Better Man
Than This..
but The Darkness
is My Destiny!

(which entails
Near-Certain
Loneliness.)
+++

I Wrote A
Letter to Hell
Today,
(for in That
Place I DO
Believe.)
and felt My
Heart burst
into Flames!!

Torched by
Love's Grim
Creeping
Phantom!

(Who has
Stained
My Soul
with Grief.)

j.stephen.h.

A Day. (Going On Forever.)

A dAy.
(GoInG oN
fOrEvEr.)
_________________

It's been a Day,
(going on Forever)
and No Greater Pain
can I Remember.

A Day of Hell
like none before!

(which makes
My Heart A
Cold December.)

+++

Why must My Love
Become a Ghost?
(an Apparition Brief
and Fleeting.)

While True Beauty
seems to Haunt Most,
The Minds of Men!

(Awake or
Dreaming.)

+++

For such an
Angel I would
Die,

but when Death
is All One has To
Give,

No Peace could
Anyone Hope To
Find!

(and besides, She
Wanted Me to
"Live".)

+++

It's been a Night,
(going on Eternity)
and No Blacker Rage
could I Imagine.

Thus A Devil is
Born Within My
Heart!

(Who shall Create
A Hell No Soul
Can Fathom.)

j.stephen.h.

chicken or the egg

no more chicken or the egg reasoning.
________________

it was a Cold Day
in Hell when The
Clock Struck Dead...

Love and Loss
were There.

(Two Unstately
Phantoms Laughing
Happily In My
Head.)
++

well...
No More
"Chicken-or-
The Egg"
Reasoning I
suppose..

nor long,
bleak nights
spent hoping
for brighter
days..

that do not
pass away..

like fragile
petals torn
from
the Blackest
Rose!

(placed upon
An UnForgotten
Grave.)

+++

when will the
Clock Just
Shave it's Face?!,

lending to
Love and Loss
True Meaning!

without
senseless
Repetition
For
The Devils
Sake!!

(Or Phantoms
which Rob My
Heart of Feeling.)

j.stephen.h.
















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